Chapter 319
Qin Changge raised her head and stared at the city gate of Yingdu in front of her. That night last autumn, at the position where she was standing now, the three of them led the army to pull out the camp overnight, and when they were about to turn their horses around, they all looked back at the palace. direction of the city.
The gaze cast on the little prince in the Guantang Palace deep in the palace city was unknown at that time, and it was the last glance.
When they went, the three of them tied the bridle together, and when they came back, they held the bridle alone.
Just as she knew that her fate would be grim, but she never thought that it would be so grim.
Qin Changge sat on the horse with a straight posture, but his brows were already stained with vicissitudes like autumn frost in advance.
Horseshoes clatter across Dong'an, Xifu, Tianqu, Yuyutai, and Zhandu Bridge.
At that time, there was a four-year-old child on Dong'an Avenue, who was like a cannonball hitting the emperor for his own snacks, but was held in the hands of the alluring person in red with a smile.
At that time, a group of Qing people in Xifu Street laughed and mocked wildly, in exchange for a lot of humiliation. When the man outside the small courtyard invited Bibo Pavilion, his face was like a fairy under the moon, and the man was brighter than the moonlight.
At that time, in the small courtyard in the west of the city, there was a unique birthday celebration, and the big nude cake of the Prince of Xiliang made the most romantic people in the world all stare, and then the knife and fork carved up the prince Xiao who pissed on God. I still remember that time, Suxuan held a piece of cake Squatting on the tree and eating happily, Xiao Jue frowned and covered his nose and stared at the stinky tofu sitting on the wall, Chu Feihuan smiled gracefully and gently wiped the corners of his lips, Qi Fan smiled and provoked discord, Rong Xiaotian only focused on eating the cake.
Yu Zixi, Xiao Chen, Su Xuan, Xiao Jue, Chu Feihuan, Qi Fan, Rong Xiaotian.
Walking, going, frozen in ice, sleeping in deep sleep, time is crushed into a pale thin paper by fate, and what is written in one stroke is the prophecy that the contemporary peerless person has already made.
Those amazing stares, wise confrontations, sneering collisions, and tender waiting finally turned into mist and deep snow on the top of Biluoshen Mountain, cruising silently in the distant sky, and you may be able to perceive it when you raise your eyes, but it will never be. untouchable.
How many winds and rains are blown away by the wind, in exchange for a big dream without a trace.
Qin Changge slowly pulled the reins, crossed the square, Yudai Bridge, and entered the imperial city.
This road has already been blocked. Three thousand imperial guards guard Qin Changge's side, and another three thousand imperial guards are like a torrent of steel. From Tianjie to the outside of the imperial city, there are three steps, one post and five steps, one sentry. It is almost like an emperor traveling. The guard of honor is off.
The bustling onlookers were framed behind those bright knives and halberds, looking at the center of the street excitedly and admiringly.
The army was victorious, the Queen of God returned, and the people of Xiliang were bathed in joy and glory. They didn't know that the distant and noble woman who stood at the pinnacle of the world, after a bloody struggle, felt the desolation deep in her heart that could never be shaken off.
They see her so perfect, and she sees herself so riddled with holes.
Qin Changge glanced slowly at the horse, quite helpless in her heart, she wanted to enter the city quietly, but she didn't want her son to have someone waiting at the gate of the city for a long time, this child always likes to mobilize people like this.
Hurrying all the way, Qin Changge hesitated to slow down before reaching the majestic palace gate. The so-called worry about gains and losses, the so-called timidity of being close to the hometown, the moment she approached a certain hope that she was most eager for, she began to be afraid.
Tie Xue's life, after so many partings and losses, in the end, she could only press all the pain in the bottom of her heart, oppress herself in the blood, and just accept it like this, so she reluctantly accepted it and let herself Trying to live coldly, it is probably okay to continue living like this, but if, if you give another hope, but extinguish that hope, she doesn't know if it will be the last straw that breaks the camel's back, Let yourself fall from now on, no longer have the strength to get up.
Gently let out a long breath, Qin Changge raised his head, in front of him, the heavy crimson palace gate was slowly opening, a ray of sunlight shot down from the eaves of the turret, and was slowly pulled away by the light and shadow, pulling out a pale In a long strip like a picture scroll, fine dust floating in the air can be seen flying.
A small figure standing in the center behind the door can be seen.
The high and wide palace gate, the high and wide door opening, the little child standing in the middle, so small that even the shadow is just a small ball, like a fledgling kitten under the sun.
But those many people leaned over behind his little shadow, not daring to let their shadows cover his.
However, he stands in the middle of the wide palace gate, the center point of the center line that runs straight through Yingdu, which fits so well that he should stand here, facing the vast rivers and mountains that belong to him, and order the whole world to concentrate. Listen to the sound.
The little Prince Xiao raised his head in front of the slowly opened palace gate.
Smile, with tears in my eyes, smile.
Qin Changge sat on the horse, staring deeply at his child.
From last autumn to this spring, she left him again, but she couldn't bring back the people he valued, those whom he cherished, gone forever.
She even let him face all the hardships and dangers alone, and chose to turn his back on him when Yu Zixi seized the court and threatened him. She didn't know how the child survived the five days and five nights of suffering.
She even passed the gate of Yingdu palace without entering, and cruelly let the little child lead all the officials out of the palace alone, welcome back the coffin of her relatives alone, face the cruelest farewell in the world alone, let him, late at night No one can touch his back to comfort him when he is crying, no one can hug him in his arms, and give the aching little heart the last warmth of a loved one.
No mother in the world is more cruel than this.
She should have faced him shamelessly, and he should have ignored her angrily.
However none.
They just faced each other calmly across the palace gate, and then smiled.
A pair of mother and son who know their identities, a pair of emperor mother and son who always know when to choose.
Standing at the pinnacle of the world and watching the vicissitudes of life, they can no longer have the emotions of ordinary people willfully. That is a luxury in the world of mortals, not theirs.
Bitter, yet helpless.
Qin Changge got off his horse, ignored the officials who were worshiped by Shanhuwu, and walked directly to his child.
And far away, Baozi has already stretched out his little hand, waiting to hold her.
The moment he touched Qin Changge's palm, he suddenly gasped.
Qin Changge looked down at him with a smile, and said softly, "Rong'er, what did you see?"
Baozi turned his head, looked deeply into Qin Changge's eyes, and suddenly said in a low voice, "No matter what you see, you still have me."
"Yes, I still have you." Qin Changge's heart sank, but the smile on his face remained the same, he gently pulled his hand away, and Qin Changge said, "Rong'er, there are some things that you don't know are better than knowing happiness. With this ability, I hope you will use it as little as possible."
"I know," Baozi patted his chest, "My heart shouldn't be filled with other people's stories, at least I have to leave some space for my own stories in the future, but I don't want that kind of heavy pain, I want My story is always beautiful and wonderful."
He turned his head to look at Qin Changge, his big black eyes were shining brightly.
"Do you believe it or not?"
Qin Changge smiled, and stroked Aiko's shiny satin hair.
"Believe."
The long paulownia corridor is swaying in the spring breeze, and the willow silk on all sides crosses the railing and flutters to the body from time to time, as if inviting a beautiful woman to enjoy the spring together, but the fast-moving people don’t know it, Baozi pulls Qin Changge all the way through the flowers and leaves , Stepping on the bright paulownia wood floor, there was a pleasant echo.
At the entrance of the side hall of Longzhang Palace, Baozi suddenly let go of his hand, slowed down his pace, smiled mysteriously, and pushed Qin Changge.
Qin Changge clasped his fingers on the door, and when he heard the sound of the wind blowing the golden hooks of the curtain, sweat suddenly broke out in his palms for some reason.
She pushed the door lightly.
"Squeak".
The dark shadows were pushed away, and the golden sunlight spread out on the ground, and the sunlight spread far and wide in an instant, and behind the heavy curtains, a faint figure on the couch behind the curtains was reflected.
Qin Changge's heart, which had been beating wildly, suddenly fell silent when he saw that figure.
She still remembered reaching out her hand to close the palace door, and walked over lightly.
Fingers paused on the slippery tent, the long eyelashes closed and opened again, and then opened without hesitation.
Behind the curtain.
The man closed his eyes quietly, his face was pale, at first glance, he was no different from the corpse in Suxuan's arms in front of the camp in the heavy snow last year.
Qin Changge noticed the slight rise and fall of his chest with sharp eyes.
Su Xuan...didn't lie to me...
Suddenly breathed a sigh of relief, Qin Changge's legs went limp, he couldn't stand upright and fell to the ground, and he simply leaned on Xiao Jue's shoulder.
Gently holding Xiao Jue's arm, Qin Changge stared at Xiao Jue's peaceful sleeping face, and smiled for a long time, but the smile did not go away, and tears rolled down.
Those crystal clear tears poured down from the snow-colored cheeks without stopping, continuously fell into the plush brocade blanket under her body, and then were silently sucked away, only to see the light red brocade blanket under her body gradually turning into dark red. Red, and the range of that crimson is constantly expanding.
The tears, nearly months late, soaked this ups and downs and painful fleeting years.
In the wind and snow last year, the heart that was destroyed into pieces at the moment when the curtain was raised was finally picked up at this moment and barely closed.
The deeply closed door of the palace couldn't block the bright sunlight. Those golden pillars of light penetrated through the gaps in the window lattices, wandering in the dark palace like chasing light, pieced together the thin figure of the woman little by little, pieced together her The delicate shoulders that can't help trembling.
No one knew that at this moment beside the couch weeping with joy, no one knew that the woman who was on the top, known as the Queen of God, would shed tears of joy and joy in her life, just as no one knew that all kinds of lore methods, never It's just an inevitable choice for one person to protect himself and others. In the face of love and under the halo of the queen of gods, Qin Changge has always been ordinary like the most ordinary woman.
With tears in his smile, and the shadow of a smile swaying in the tears, Qin Changge gently stroked Xiao Jue's face... He has become much thinner, and he has slept for several months. From a medical point of view, he is close to a vegetative state, but there is another what relationship?As long as there is life, there is hope after all.
(End of this chapter)
Qin Changge raised her head and stared at the city gate of Yingdu in front of her. That night last autumn, at the position where she was standing now, the three of them led the army to pull out the camp overnight, and when they were about to turn their horses around, they all looked back at the palace. direction of the city.
The gaze cast on the little prince in the Guantang Palace deep in the palace city was unknown at that time, and it was the last glance.
When they went, the three of them tied the bridle together, and when they came back, they held the bridle alone.
Just as she knew that her fate would be grim, but she never thought that it would be so grim.
Qin Changge sat on the horse with a straight posture, but his brows were already stained with vicissitudes like autumn frost in advance.
Horseshoes clatter across Dong'an, Xifu, Tianqu, Yuyutai, and Zhandu Bridge.
At that time, there was a four-year-old child on Dong'an Avenue, who was like a cannonball hitting the emperor for his own snacks, but was held in the hands of the alluring person in red with a smile.
At that time, a group of Qing people in Xifu Street laughed and mocked wildly, in exchange for a lot of humiliation. When the man outside the small courtyard invited Bibo Pavilion, his face was like a fairy under the moon, and the man was brighter than the moonlight.
At that time, in the small courtyard in the west of the city, there was a unique birthday celebration, and the big nude cake of the Prince of Xiliang made the most romantic people in the world all stare, and then the knife and fork carved up the prince Xiao who pissed on God. I still remember that time, Suxuan held a piece of cake Squatting on the tree and eating happily, Xiao Jue frowned and covered his nose and stared at the stinky tofu sitting on the wall, Chu Feihuan smiled gracefully and gently wiped the corners of his lips, Qi Fan smiled and provoked discord, Rong Xiaotian only focused on eating the cake.
Yu Zixi, Xiao Chen, Su Xuan, Xiao Jue, Chu Feihuan, Qi Fan, Rong Xiaotian.
Walking, going, frozen in ice, sleeping in deep sleep, time is crushed into a pale thin paper by fate, and what is written in one stroke is the prophecy that the contemporary peerless person has already made.
Those amazing stares, wise confrontations, sneering collisions, and tender waiting finally turned into mist and deep snow on the top of Biluoshen Mountain, cruising silently in the distant sky, and you may be able to perceive it when you raise your eyes, but it will never be. untouchable.
How many winds and rains are blown away by the wind, in exchange for a big dream without a trace.
Qin Changge slowly pulled the reins, crossed the square, Yudai Bridge, and entered the imperial city.
This road has already been blocked. Three thousand imperial guards guard Qin Changge's side, and another three thousand imperial guards are like a torrent of steel. From Tianjie to the outside of the imperial city, there are three steps, one post and five steps, one sentry. It is almost like an emperor traveling. The guard of honor is off.
The bustling onlookers were framed behind those bright knives and halberds, looking at the center of the street excitedly and admiringly.
The army was victorious, the Queen of God returned, and the people of Xiliang were bathed in joy and glory. They didn't know that the distant and noble woman who stood at the pinnacle of the world, after a bloody struggle, felt the desolation deep in her heart that could never be shaken off.
They see her so perfect, and she sees herself so riddled with holes.
Qin Changge glanced slowly at the horse, quite helpless in her heart, she wanted to enter the city quietly, but she didn't want her son to have someone waiting at the gate of the city for a long time, this child always likes to mobilize people like this.
Hurrying all the way, Qin Changge hesitated to slow down before reaching the majestic palace gate. The so-called worry about gains and losses, the so-called timidity of being close to the hometown, the moment she approached a certain hope that she was most eager for, she began to be afraid.
Tie Xue's life, after so many partings and losses, in the end, she could only press all the pain in the bottom of her heart, oppress herself in the blood, and just accept it like this, so she reluctantly accepted it and let herself Trying to live coldly, it is probably okay to continue living like this, but if, if you give another hope, but extinguish that hope, she doesn't know if it will be the last straw that breaks the camel's back, Let yourself fall from now on, no longer have the strength to get up.
Gently let out a long breath, Qin Changge raised his head, in front of him, the heavy crimson palace gate was slowly opening, a ray of sunlight shot down from the eaves of the turret, and was slowly pulled away by the light and shadow, pulling out a pale In a long strip like a picture scroll, fine dust floating in the air can be seen flying.
A small figure standing in the center behind the door can be seen.
The high and wide palace gate, the high and wide door opening, the little child standing in the middle, so small that even the shadow is just a small ball, like a fledgling kitten under the sun.
But those many people leaned over behind his little shadow, not daring to let their shadows cover his.
However, he stands in the middle of the wide palace gate, the center point of the center line that runs straight through Yingdu, which fits so well that he should stand here, facing the vast rivers and mountains that belong to him, and order the whole world to concentrate. Listen to the sound.
The little Prince Xiao raised his head in front of the slowly opened palace gate.
Smile, with tears in my eyes, smile.
Qin Changge sat on the horse, staring deeply at his child.
From last autumn to this spring, she left him again, but she couldn't bring back the people he valued, those whom he cherished, gone forever.
She even let him face all the hardships and dangers alone, and chose to turn his back on him when Yu Zixi seized the court and threatened him. She didn't know how the child survived the five days and five nights of suffering.
She even passed the gate of Yingdu palace without entering, and cruelly let the little child lead all the officials out of the palace alone, welcome back the coffin of her relatives alone, face the cruelest farewell in the world alone, let him, late at night No one can touch his back to comfort him when he is crying, no one can hug him in his arms, and give the aching little heart the last warmth of a loved one.
No mother in the world is more cruel than this.
She should have faced him shamelessly, and he should have ignored her angrily.
However none.
They just faced each other calmly across the palace gate, and then smiled.
A pair of mother and son who know their identities, a pair of emperor mother and son who always know when to choose.
Standing at the pinnacle of the world and watching the vicissitudes of life, they can no longer have the emotions of ordinary people willfully. That is a luxury in the world of mortals, not theirs.
Bitter, yet helpless.
Qin Changge got off his horse, ignored the officials who were worshiped by Shanhuwu, and walked directly to his child.
And far away, Baozi has already stretched out his little hand, waiting to hold her.
The moment he touched Qin Changge's palm, he suddenly gasped.
Qin Changge looked down at him with a smile, and said softly, "Rong'er, what did you see?"
Baozi turned his head, looked deeply into Qin Changge's eyes, and suddenly said in a low voice, "No matter what you see, you still have me."
"Yes, I still have you." Qin Changge's heart sank, but the smile on his face remained the same, he gently pulled his hand away, and Qin Changge said, "Rong'er, there are some things that you don't know are better than knowing happiness. With this ability, I hope you will use it as little as possible."
"I know," Baozi patted his chest, "My heart shouldn't be filled with other people's stories, at least I have to leave some space for my own stories in the future, but I don't want that kind of heavy pain, I want My story is always beautiful and wonderful."
He turned his head to look at Qin Changge, his big black eyes were shining brightly.
"Do you believe it or not?"
Qin Changge smiled, and stroked Aiko's shiny satin hair.
"Believe."
The long paulownia corridor is swaying in the spring breeze, and the willow silk on all sides crosses the railing and flutters to the body from time to time, as if inviting a beautiful woman to enjoy the spring together, but the fast-moving people don’t know it, Baozi pulls Qin Changge all the way through the flowers and leaves , Stepping on the bright paulownia wood floor, there was a pleasant echo.
At the entrance of the side hall of Longzhang Palace, Baozi suddenly let go of his hand, slowed down his pace, smiled mysteriously, and pushed Qin Changge.
Qin Changge clasped his fingers on the door, and when he heard the sound of the wind blowing the golden hooks of the curtain, sweat suddenly broke out in his palms for some reason.
She pushed the door lightly.
"Squeak".
The dark shadows were pushed away, and the golden sunlight spread out on the ground, and the sunlight spread far and wide in an instant, and behind the heavy curtains, a faint figure on the couch behind the curtains was reflected.
Qin Changge's heart, which had been beating wildly, suddenly fell silent when he saw that figure.
She still remembered reaching out her hand to close the palace door, and walked over lightly.
Fingers paused on the slippery tent, the long eyelashes closed and opened again, and then opened without hesitation.
Behind the curtain.
The man closed his eyes quietly, his face was pale, at first glance, he was no different from the corpse in Suxuan's arms in front of the camp in the heavy snow last year.
Qin Changge noticed the slight rise and fall of his chest with sharp eyes.
Su Xuan...didn't lie to me...
Suddenly breathed a sigh of relief, Qin Changge's legs went limp, he couldn't stand upright and fell to the ground, and he simply leaned on Xiao Jue's shoulder.
Gently holding Xiao Jue's arm, Qin Changge stared at Xiao Jue's peaceful sleeping face, and smiled for a long time, but the smile did not go away, and tears rolled down.
Those crystal clear tears poured down from the snow-colored cheeks without stopping, continuously fell into the plush brocade blanket under her body, and then were silently sucked away, only to see the light red brocade blanket under her body gradually turning into dark red. Red, and the range of that crimson is constantly expanding.
The tears, nearly months late, soaked this ups and downs and painful fleeting years.
In the wind and snow last year, the heart that was destroyed into pieces at the moment when the curtain was raised was finally picked up at this moment and barely closed.
The deeply closed door of the palace couldn't block the bright sunlight. Those golden pillars of light penetrated through the gaps in the window lattices, wandering in the dark palace like chasing light, pieced together the thin figure of the woman little by little, pieced together her The delicate shoulders that can't help trembling.
No one knew that at this moment beside the couch weeping with joy, no one knew that the woman who was on the top, known as the Queen of God, would shed tears of joy and joy in her life, just as no one knew that all kinds of lore methods, never It's just an inevitable choice for one person to protect himself and others. In the face of love and under the halo of the queen of gods, Qin Changge has always been ordinary like the most ordinary woman.
With tears in his smile, and the shadow of a smile swaying in the tears, Qin Changge gently stroked Xiao Jue's face... He has become much thinner, and he has slept for several months. From a medical point of view, he is close to a vegetative state, but there is another what relationship?As long as there is life, there is hope after all.
(End of this chapter)
