"Should I be disappointed?" she suddenly asked, looking at Chen Mo. "Did you feel the same way at the beginning? When you first arrived in the snowfield, I should have known at that time that you came to me because of Hui Jie. In fact, there was only so much left between us at that time. ."
"There are some faded feelings, some memories that are almost forgotten, and there are also some debts and reluctances, regrets and obsessions. Compared with the former, it is actually more the latter." She said, and asked: "Why didn't you just direct it at that time?" Tell me, are you afraid that I won’t be able to accept this fact?”
It seems to be to untie the scar that has long been buried in my heart.
For Chen Mo, that happened not long ago, but for Tallulah, it was already a hurdle in her heart that she would never be able to overcome. Even though she had accepted some of it because of the changes in Longmen, now was the final time. A good opportunity, both for herself and Chen Mo in front of her.
Even though this is just a dream, time has gone back several years in this dream, to the time before those things really happened, when maybe everything was still too late.
"...It's a long story."
"We have plenty of time." Tallulah replied, as if she was determined to hear an answer from Chen Mo.
"I thought about it. When I first arrived in the snowfield and found you, I didn't know how to speak. I thought I would tell you about it one day after the journey south gradually stabilized. By then, the result would no longer matter." Chen Mo explain. "I can't stay with you forever, and keep walking with you until I see the end of your ideal. There are already many people around you, and I am no longer indispensable to you. I I can't keep this matter secret for too long. One day, when your career stabilizes, I will go back to Longmen."
"But why...because of Kazdel?" Tallulah seemed to think of something.
"Because of the inner guards." Chen Mo retorted: "Because the arrival of the Ursus inner guards made me see one thing clearly. It made me see clearly that what you want to do will be more difficult and dangerous than you imagined. After arriving in Kazdale, I talked about your future with an old friend, but the result was not ideal. I thought of many ways, but even with the help of Kazdale and Victoria, I can't guarantee that I can give you hope."

"This is not the best time. Ursus has not yet reached the end of its rope. Even if you can really do something in Ursus, you will not be able to really shake its foundation. It is impossible from the beginning, but I know that you I have already made this preparation, ready to be a martyr."
Chen Mo said, and as the words fell, his heart became calmer and calmer.
Now that things have happened, he has nothing to hide.
"I have thought of many ways and tried countless possibilities. Even if it is the best result... you will die."
Chen Mo said this.
These words of his were something Tallulah had never heard him say before. Even though Tallulah had already had this conjecture in her mind, hearing it from Chen Mo's mouth was a completely different feeling.
She didn't expect it to happen so early. At that time, she didn't even think that Chen Mo would have so many thoughts in his heart. He would never say it or mention it to anyone.
But even if he mentioned it, what's the use? What Tallulah knew was that it wasn't that he hadn't mentioned it, but that when he mentioned it, Tallulah didn't care about it, caring about a possibility that she knew in her heart.
She was not afraid of death, and she never thought about backing down, but Chen Mo couldn't. She didn't misjudge herself, she just misjudged the person in front of her.
"I know you are not afraid of death, but I can't. I can't allow myself to watch you embark on a fruitless path after my time is running out, but I can't guarantee what it will be like in the future. I can only do my best to make your journey easier."
Chen Mo said. "But the more I think about it, the more guilt I feel towards Hui Jie. I can no longer do anything for her, and I can't give her a stable life."
"Actually, many times, I hesitate, whether what I do is right or wrong, I hesitate, whether I should be more selfish, but where to start, Tallulah, what if... I mean If, if one day I am no longer here and you are no longer here, if Hui Jie knows this news, how will she spend the rest of her life."
"I'm a person who doesn't have much ability."
Chen Mo sighed softly: "I neither have the ability to let you realize your ideals, nor do I have the ability to give Hui Jie the future she wants. I seem to be caught in the middle. Taking a step forward will make me regret it, but taking a step forward will make me regret it." It makes me regretful again."
If Chen Mo takes a step forward, Tallulah's death will make him regret his inaction, but if he steps back, he will regret that he could not give Chen Huijie a stable future.
It seemed like he was in a dilemma, and no matter what he did, he couldn't get a good ending.
It is also destined that people who do evil things like her will not get the good ending they expect. If that is the case, wouldn't it be too unfair? For those good people and those innocent people, So unfair.
Chen Mo said.
"I used to think about what our world is like, maybe it should be very beautiful, because there are always some beautiful people and wonderful things waiting for people. People can't really have everything in this life, but It’s impossible to really have nothing, I thought. In the end, I felt that there was no truth at all. There has always been only one truth in this world, and that is that the weak will eat the strong, and the winner will be the king and the loser. Although I am very reluctant to admit it, this is also a fact. "

"Then do I count myself strong or weak? I don't think it should be so, because a person's ability is limited. No matter how powerful a person is, he cannot fight against an entire empire. No matter how powerful a person is, he cannot fight against the whole empire. It is not something that one person can do to reverse some long-established concepts." Chen Mo said: "But human life is too short. You and I are different, Tallulah, I actually don't have much in my heart. Ideas, but you are different. You have an ideal that can be called great, and you envision changing the common sense of this land. "
Chen Mo smiled and looked at the girl not far away, as if he had seen her stubborn and aggressive look when she was a child.
His expression softened.
"That's really good, Tallulah." He said: "It's really good. I also know that when a person has this ideal, her life will be very miserable and desolate before she realizes her ideal. But after she realizes her ideal, After that, what she left to people was unimaginable stability and happiness, and there’s nothing wrong with that.”
"If you want to be a great person, then do it. I can't stop you, because I have always been a little person, and occasionally doing something outstanding is really not too much."
"I know that maybe one day you can really do this, but for me personally, I want to be selfish. I hope you can go smoothly. This is the only thing I can do for you."
Tallulah didn't answer.
She was very quiet, she just listened quietly until Chen Mo said nothing more.
What is she thinking?
She thought it was really smooth, too smooth. No wonder the Ursus Empire seemed so calm after they got Chernobog.
In fact, it is not calm, but Ursus can't tell whether the Yan Kingdom is behind the infected people. The empire is busy dealing with the power of the military nobles after this war. It cannot free its hands for the time being and is unwilling to cause more trouble. .
The military nobles were too eager to cope with the pressure from the Imperial Council and had no time to pay attention to the movements of the infected in a city. They got the time they wanted most, the strange balancing force brought about by a war on all sides.
Just like this, the infected people have reached this point.
What's more important is that after that war, Tallulah killed the enemy's leader, and her prestige even surpassed that of the Patriots in an instant.
Because she is powerful, because her existence makes the infected people believe that she is a hero, a hero who can fight against the Yan Kingdom and Ursus, and a leader who can bring the infected people to resist oppression.
This reputation even overshadows her status as the adopted daughter of the Duke. Even when people think of her, they will only remember that she saved a war in Ursus when the Ursus army was retreating steadily.
Her power has become a legend even among Ursus folk and military.
If the name is not correct, the words will not go smoothly. After the name is correct, many things will be solved easily. Just imagine if it was Tallulah at that time. When she returned to Beiyuan and said that she would take the infected south, there would be a few people who did not trust her. To do it.
Not many people.
She has become the real visible hope for the infected, instead of just a beautiful fantasy piled up with words. People only believe in what they can see. They need a hero. If she stands there, people will believe in her. She will bring a symbol of victory.
Symbols cannot be inherited, but symbols can be reborn.
In fact, there were many things that Chen Mo couldn't say anymore.
For example, the deal between him and Witte, the speaker of the Ursus Parliament, the choices and trade-offs made between him and Fyodor, and the agreement between him and the Taifu.
There are too many people involved in the matter of Northern Xinjiang, but in the final analysis, only one person can really make it perfect in Northern Xinjiang. This is not harmful to Yan State. Yan State has an additional integration movement as a barrier, which divides Ursus. National strength, and for Ursus, this is an extremely good opportunity to reform national politics and gather the army. For the infected, they have a chance to breathe.
Everyone is thinking about gains and losses, and everyone is making their own calculations and not wanting to suffer losses.
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A few people will be sad about this. Compared with a country, compared with the lives of dozens or millions of people, it is really insignificant.
"sorry."

After a long period of silence, Tallulah suddenly spoke up.
Chen Mo was just stunned for a moment.
"It's ok."
"If I had it to do over again, I think I would still make the same choice." Tallulah said again. She stood up and walked towards Chen Mo.
Chen Mo watched her coming.
"I know, so it's okay."
Tallulah stopped and stood in front of Chen Mo.
After all, she and Chen are different people. In fact, she has never asked for anything, and she has never said that she wants anyone to do those things for her.
Chen Mo had no reason to blame her. Just like when he was a child in Black Wall, he knew when he should hate and when he shouldn't think about it.
The touch felt a little cold and unfamiliar. In fact, Chen Mo was not surprised because he could clearly see every move of Drake.
Maybe he did have this extravagant wish when he was a child, but after all, too many years have passed.
Drake's long black tail swayed gently, and her arms were wrapped around Chen Mo's neck. The touch of her silver hair rubbed against her ears, making people forget about the ice and snow outside.
You know I never have high expectations. After all, I don’t have much ability, but I have to do something, otherwise I won’t be able to feel at ease.
Northern Xinjiang is dreaming, Beijing is prosperous ([-])
Time just slowed down.
Chen Mo seemed to be able to see every detail in Tallulah's slightly trembling silver eyelashes.
The touch was a little cold and soft, with a breath that belonged to Drake, filling the tip of Chen Mo's nose.
Chen Mo slowly raised his hanging hand, dropped it in the air, and finally put it down again, but Tallulah still held his shoulders and gently put his head on his chest.
The pair of small horns had become so conspicuous at some point.
It seems that after more than ten years, the story has finally returned to its original trajectory.
Tallulah opened her eyes again.
"Go ahead, Hui Jie is waiting for you, isn't she?"
She retracted her hand, took a few steps back, looked at Chen Mo standing in front of her, and looked at the eyes that went from surprised and dazed to calm.
"At this point, I have said everything I wanted to say."
Chen Mo made no move.
He just looked at Tallulah who smiled after saying this.
With a fleeting smile on her lips, she put her hands behind her back and stared in her direction.
Tallulah felt that she had no reason to keep Chen Mo by her side.

"So..." Chen Mo opened his mouth: "So this is why you stayed here waiting for me to come over and apologize to me?"
Chen Mo looked at Tallulah, his voice was so calm that no emotion could be heard.
"Do you think there is such a good thing in the world, that everything can be wiped out with just a few words?" he asked, suddenly grabbing Tallulah's arm and pulling her to him under Draco's stunned gaze. .
"Don't even think about it!"
What he said was so certain and unequivocal that there was no room for doubt.
Chen stretched out his hand to straighten the hair on Xiao Mo's forehead.
She had to admit that she felt a little complicated right now. She looked outside the barracks from time to time and sighed softly.
The feeling of worrying about gains and losses should not appear in Chen Huijie.
She had always been a decisive and straightforward person, but when it came to matters involving Xiaota and Chen Mo, Chen found that she was not as accepting as she thought.
Even if that person is Tallulah.
They should have met by now.
What will they say.
Chen Huijie, Chen Huijie, what are you thinking about?
Chen wanted to try to calm down the chaotic thoughts that inevitably surged in her mind, but the more she tried to do so, the more she found that she couldn't let go.
She was obviously the one who asked Tallulah to stay there, but now she was the one who couldn't calm down.
She took a deep breath.
His eyes fell on Chi Xiao hanging in the scabbard of his sword. He wanted to walk out of the barracks countless times, but was unable to take a step forward. He deceived himself and began to comfort himself.
For Chen, both Tallulah and Chen Mo were the most important people to her. She could not allow herself to lose either of them, but why did it become like this.
It's all that guy's fault.
Chen thought fiercely, clenched his fingers, and slowly loosened them helplessly.
Her mood became more complicated, wandering between regret, loss and happiness, which was difficult to express.
The sound of footsteps sounded at this moment.
The door curtain of the barracks was opened from the outside.
Cold air flowed into the room, and in the gentle light, Chen saw Tallulah coming in from the outside. Her red pupils shrank slightly, full of shock and confusion.
Before she could speak.
Chen Mo's figure appeared behind Tallulah.
Chen seemed to think of something for a moment, and his eyes fell on Chen Mo beyond Tallulah, looking at the stern face.
"What the hell are you doing?"

Chen tilted his head.
She couldn't deny that she felt a little happy at that moment, as if all her previous random thoughts were meaningless.
"He is worried about you staying here. I think he must be feeling guilty." Tallulah explained: "Are you feeling better now?"
"Hey, what are you talking about?"
Chen subconsciously retorted, but found that the tone of her rebuttal seemed a bit weak. Realizing this, she could only look straight at the two people who appeared in the room.

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