Chapter 240 12. Girl's Mind
The phone's light was weak, but Xu Yi still clearly saw the words 'fluvoxamine maleate tablets' on the box.
Like a pull from somewhere, Xu Yi's heart beat wildly the moment he saw these words.
The hand on his chest gradually tightened, Xu Yi tried his best to ignore the discomfort in his body, turned on the phone and began to search.
Looking at the content on the search page, Xu Yiyi whispered, "Antidepressants, heh, what a joke."
Xu Yi felt that all the strength in his body seemed to be exhausted when he just picked up the bag, so he sat down on the porch steps with his hands weakly propped up, frowning and began to search for relevant fragments in his mind.
After a long time, Xu Yi finally stood up.
Putting the medicine box on the shoe rack back into the handbag, Xu changed back into his slippers and slowly left the entrance.
Xu Yi, who returned to the room again, buried himself on the bed, and the notebook that had been held in his arms was spread out at his feet.
Xu Yi tried to find out from her memory the reason why she refused to accept her mother's illness, but she suddenly discovered that everything had been traced for a long was she who was blindly immersed in the pain of her own making, and never looked around seriously.
Whether it is Mu Xiaoman or her mother, she has never paid her sincerity.
She gave all her patience and trust to Xie Nan, and she regarded Xie Nan as hope and light, just because she was always so cherished by others.
Maybe it wasn't that she wasn't loved, but that she never thought she was loved.
Its daybreak.
Xu Yi's second escape was still nothing.
That's it, stay in this exquisite cage, be the most well-behaved string doll for mother, and become what mother wants to see.
That's it, as long as you see the light, that's enough.
But before that, she wanted to see her light again.
……
Xu Yi listened absent-mindedly to the next day's class, and just wanted to leave quickly and get to Xie Nan as soon as possible. She had a lot of things to tell Xie Nan, and she also had many, many stories she wanted to tell Xie Nan.
When class was about to end, Xu Yiyi turned his head and whispered to Mu Xiaoman, "Xiaoman, I'm sorry, I have important things to do today, so I can't go back with you."
After saying that, the get out of class bell rang immediately, and Xu Yi couldn't wait to run out before Mu Xiaoman could answer.
Xu, who ran out of the school gate, immediately stopped a car and headed towards the coffee shop.
In the car, Xu Yi kept making drafts in his head, hoping that he would not be too nervous to know what to say.
After getting off the car, Xu Yi tidied up his hair and clothes before slowly walking into the coffee shop.
Xie Nan still sat in his old seat and read the book intently, he was out of tune with everything around him but integrated, contradictory beauty.
Xu Yiyi walked very slowly, just looking at Xie Nan's back almost greedily.
Obviously getting closer and closer, but Xu Yi still felt that there seemed to be a river that could never be crossed between the two of them.
And that river is called - Responsibility.
It is the grace of mother's birth and her feeding back.
She blamed her mother for always ignoring her feelings, and thought about leaving, but she still hoped that her mother was healthy and happy, even if that happiness had nothing to do with her.
No matter how much she hated and resented, it was only because she was still looking forward to her mother's love from the bottom of her heart.
She has tasted the pain, and it is enough that she has tasted it often.
As soon as Xu Yiyi approached, Xie Nan raised his head.
The four eyes met, and the smiles were tender, but there seemed to be something hidden behind the smiles on the faces of the two of them today.
This time Xu Yi didn't put down the schoolbag, but hugged it tightly in his arms.
Xu Yi bit his lip and finally made up his mind: "Xie Nan, thank you for appearing in my life. I am very grateful for every day since I met you."
Xu Yi held his schoolbag tightly with one hand, trying to make his voice sound calmer.
Xie Nan put the book in his hand aside, looked at Xu Yi seriously and waited for her next words.
"I hope that in the future, we can always be together. Day and night and return, wandering with the clouds and clouds in the sky..."
Facing Xie Nan's serious and calm eyes, Xu Yi paused and continued: "So I want to ask you, are you willing to wait for me, wait for me to grow up, wait for me to settle everything, and then we will go on together again." Let’s watch the moon and the stars together and gossip about the daily life.”
Xu Yi fell into Xie Nan's ears word by word, but he was unable to respond.
At least, right now he can't.
The two sat quietly like this for a long time, until the coffee on the table was no longer steaming, and Xu Yi's heart gradually returned to its usual rhythm, and she had already thought of nearly a hundred ways for Xie Nan to refuse. The reason at the time, but Xie Nan still kept his head down.
The clock on the wall was ticking, and there was no reason to stop.
A girl of seventeen or eighteen is open, but also proud.
"Anyway, I'm glad to meet you." After saying that, Xu Yi got up and strode away.
No answer, perhaps the clearest answer.
Xu Yi just likes Xie Nan, so she will frankly express her Xu Yi is also proud, so she will choose to leave decently after being silent.
I don't know when, the sky began to snow sparsely.
The snow flutters like fluff, and some of them have dissipated in the world before they fall to the ground. They come quietly and then go quietly.
Taking a deep breath, Xu Yi smiled wryly and accompanied Xue Hua, taking every step firmly.
It would be a lie to say that I am not sad, and it would be a lie to say that I have no regrets, but everything has already happened, and Xu Yi can't lie to himself.
There is no right or wrong in love, only I like you, but you don't happen to like me that's all.
Xu Yiyi didn't wipe away the tears from her face, and let them drip down, as if this could take away all her unwillingness and delusions.
After returning home, Xu Yi locked himself in the piano room and kept playing the piece he composed for Xie Nan.
In the past few months, Xu Yi has been constantly revising this song, but he always feels that it is not perfect enough.
But until this moment, Xu Yi suddenly figured it out. Those who can still remember it are often full of regrets.
Xu Yi played tirelessly over and over again, without crying or complaining. She was immersed in the music and saw all the beautiful things.
What she has is enough, she is also an enviable girl in the eyes of others, there is nothing to be sad about.
Apart from the boring life, she already has enough surprises, even if she can't keep them for herself, but she has seen the light, hasn't she?
That's enough, there's nothing to regret... right?
Looking for a reason to comfort himself, this is something Xu Yi has learned since he was a child.
But even after looking for thousands of reasons, she still couldn't help but think, if she likes it, she can politely go back and forth.
(End of this chapter)
The phone's light was weak, but Xu Yi still clearly saw the words 'fluvoxamine maleate tablets' on the box.
Like a pull from somewhere, Xu Yi's heart beat wildly the moment he saw these words.
The hand on his chest gradually tightened, Xu Yi tried his best to ignore the discomfort in his body, turned on the phone and began to search.
Looking at the content on the search page, Xu Yiyi whispered, "Antidepressants, heh, what a joke."
Xu Yi felt that all the strength in his body seemed to be exhausted when he just picked up the bag, so he sat down on the porch steps with his hands weakly propped up, frowning and began to search for relevant fragments in his mind.
After a long time, Xu Yi finally stood up.
Putting the medicine box on the shoe rack back into the handbag, Xu changed back into his slippers and slowly left the entrance.
Xu Yi, who returned to the room again, buried himself on the bed, and the notebook that had been held in his arms was spread out at his feet.
Xu Yi tried to find out from her memory the reason why she refused to accept her mother's illness, but she suddenly discovered that everything had been traced for a long was she who was blindly immersed in the pain of her own making, and never looked around seriously.
Whether it is Mu Xiaoman or her mother, she has never paid her sincerity.
She gave all her patience and trust to Xie Nan, and she regarded Xie Nan as hope and light, just because she was always so cherished by others.
Maybe it wasn't that she wasn't loved, but that she never thought she was loved.
Its daybreak.
Xu Yi's second escape was still nothing.
That's it, stay in this exquisite cage, be the most well-behaved string doll for mother, and become what mother wants to see.
That's it, as long as you see the light, that's enough.
But before that, she wanted to see her light again.
……
Xu Yi listened absent-mindedly to the next day's class, and just wanted to leave quickly and get to Xie Nan as soon as possible. She had a lot of things to tell Xie Nan, and she also had many, many stories she wanted to tell Xie Nan.
When class was about to end, Xu Yiyi turned his head and whispered to Mu Xiaoman, "Xiaoman, I'm sorry, I have important things to do today, so I can't go back with you."
After saying that, the get out of class bell rang immediately, and Xu Yi couldn't wait to run out before Mu Xiaoman could answer.
Xu, who ran out of the school gate, immediately stopped a car and headed towards the coffee shop.
In the car, Xu Yi kept making drafts in his head, hoping that he would not be too nervous to know what to say.
After getting off the car, Xu Yi tidied up his hair and clothes before slowly walking into the coffee shop.
Xie Nan still sat in his old seat and read the book intently, he was out of tune with everything around him but integrated, contradictory beauty.
Xu Yiyi walked very slowly, just looking at Xie Nan's back almost greedily.
Obviously getting closer and closer, but Xu Yi still felt that there seemed to be a river that could never be crossed between the two of them.
And that river is called - Responsibility.
It is the grace of mother's birth and her feeding back.
She blamed her mother for always ignoring her feelings, and thought about leaving, but she still hoped that her mother was healthy and happy, even if that happiness had nothing to do with her.
No matter how much she hated and resented, it was only because she was still looking forward to her mother's love from the bottom of her heart.
She has tasted the pain, and it is enough that she has tasted it often.
As soon as Xu Yiyi approached, Xie Nan raised his head.
The four eyes met, and the smiles were tender, but there seemed to be something hidden behind the smiles on the faces of the two of them today.
This time Xu Yi didn't put down the schoolbag, but hugged it tightly in his arms.
Xu Yi bit his lip and finally made up his mind: "Xie Nan, thank you for appearing in my life. I am very grateful for every day since I met you."
Xu Yi held his schoolbag tightly with one hand, trying to make his voice sound calmer.
Xie Nan put the book in his hand aside, looked at Xu Yi seriously and waited for her next words.
"I hope that in the future, we can always be together. Day and night and return, wandering with the clouds and clouds in the sky..."
Facing Xie Nan's serious and calm eyes, Xu Yi paused and continued: "So I want to ask you, are you willing to wait for me, wait for me to grow up, wait for me to settle everything, and then we will go on together again." Let’s watch the moon and the stars together and gossip about the daily life.”
Xu Yi fell into Xie Nan's ears word by word, but he was unable to respond.
At least, right now he can't.
The two sat quietly like this for a long time, until the coffee on the table was no longer steaming, and Xu Yi's heart gradually returned to its usual rhythm, and she had already thought of nearly a hundred ways for Xie Nan to refuse. The reason at the time, but Xie Nan still kept his head down.
The clock on the wall was ticking, and there was no reason to stop.
A girl of seventeen or eighteen is open, but also proud.
"Anyway, I'm glad to meet you." After saying that, Xu Yi got up and strode away.
No answer, perhaps the clearest answer.
Xu Yi just likes Xie Nan, so she will frankly express her Xu Yi is also proud, so she will choose to leave decently after being silent.
I don't know when, the sky began to snow sparsely.
The snow flutters like fluff, and some of them have dissipated in the world before they fall to the ground. They come quietly and then go quietly.
Taking a deep breath, Xu Yi smiled wryly and accompanied Xue Hua, taking every step firmly.
It would be a lie to say that I am not sad, and it would be a lie to say that I have no regrets, but everything has already happened, and Xu Yi can't lie to himself.
There is no right or wrong in love, only I like you, but you don't happen to like me that's all.
Xu Yiyi didn't wipe away the tears from her face, and let them drip down, as if this could take away all her unwillingness and delusions.
After returning home, Xu Yi locked himself in the piano room and kept playing the piece he composed for Xie Nan.
In the past few months, Xu Yi has been constantly revising this song, but he always feels that it is not perfect enough.
But until this moment, Xu Yi suddenly figured it out. Those who can still remember it are often full of regrets.
Xu Yi played tirelessly over and over again, without crying or complaining. She was immersed in the music and saw all the beautiful things.
What she has is enough, she is also an enviable girl in the eyes of others, there is nothing to be sad about.
Apart from the boring life, she already has enough surprises, even if she can't keep them for herself, but she has seen the light, hasn't she?
That's enough, there's nothing to regret... right?
Looking for a reason to comfort himself, this is something Xu Yi has learned since he was a child.
But even after looking for thousands of reasons, she still couldn't help but think, if she likes it, she can politely go back and forth.
(End of this chapter)
