"If it's for you, I can pretend to be happy even if I'm sad."
"If it's for you, I can pretend to be strong even if it hurts."
Inspiration came like a spring. After getting started, Chi Jingyuan moved his hands back and forth on the piano keys, and the music played smoothly without any pause.
At the same time, the lyrics were presented quickly one by one. The look in Ming Jingnan's eyes when they parted at night appeared in front of him. When Chi Jingyuan put himself in Ming Jingnan's perspective, looking back at this long-lasting relationship, and reliving the pressure and humiliation of recent days, he only felt an unspeakable sadness in his heart.
The words of Ikegami conveyed by Minatozaki Sana were like a key that completely opened the valve of emotions. The so-called lyrics seemed to appear in my mind out of thin air without any need for thinking.
...because they seemed to have already been there.
"I just want to be a woman who cares about you wholeheartedly."
"Completely change myself, just for you."
“I hope love is pure.”
"I lost myself just to be your doll"
"This... is fake love."
If it was Ming Jingnan, his heart would definitely be filled with anger and sadness, and he would want to accuse me loudly.
If it were Xiaonan, he would definitely doubt the authenticity of this relationship. Looking back on the past, he would only feel that that love was fake, right?
But, why do I feel this feeling is familiar, as if I have experienced it before...
He began to try to put himself in Ming Jingnan's shoes, simulating the true feelings of his girlfriend whom he had been dating for many days, and accusing and questioning himself from her standpoint and perspective.
But as he sang, the emotions couldn't help but come back to him... Although similar feelings and experiences happened a long time ago, they made him feel more deeply about Mingjing Nan's feelings.
The inspiration that he had been unable to find when he was trying to create a Girls' Generation song before now blossomed like fireworks. Chi Jingyuan played the unfinished song on the piano freely without any hindrance.
It was done in one go. Chi Jingyuan hadn't felt this kind of inspiration for a long time.
It's just that the price is a little bit higher.
I vaguely remember that after breaking up with Bae Joo-hyun, he seemed to suddenly have inspiration and wrote his popular solo song "Loved".
From his own point of view, this song is more suitable than the Japanese album "Electric Kiss" that EXO is preparing, as well as the title song of the future regular fourth album.
only……
Shaking his head, Chi Jingyuan sighed.
But this song is not available yet.
This is a song written from Ming Jingnan's perspective, speculating on her thoughts and emotions, and written in her tone. It can be regarded as an analysis of her feelings.
Even the origin of the entire song and the lyrics that point to the theme are the thoughts of Minami Nai as relayed by Sana Minatozaki.
Others might not be able to hear it... but Mingjing Nan herself could definitely hear it. The two had just broken up, and Nan was still in a stage of breakdown and sadness. If this song was released at this time, it would be tantamount to exposing her scars and using her pain as a footnote.
Breaking up doesn't mean we're all done, and it doesn't mean Chi Jingyuan doesn't care about Xiaonan's feelings anymore.
No matter how you look at it, it's a bit too shameless... Even he couldn't do that.
Unless time passes and Ming Jingnan no longer cares about this relationship or their breakup for some reason, he will just laugh it off after hearing this line from the song.
However, based on Chi Jingyuan's understanding of Ming Jingnan...
It's really a bit difficult.
What a pity...
He shook his head, feeling a little regretful, but he didn't think too much about it. Anyway, EXO's plans and songs for this year have been almost completed. Although this song is of high quality and he likes it very much, it doesn't matter if this one is the best.
He looked at the song he had recorded, thought for a long time, pursed his lips and wrote the song title on it:
Fake Love
Putting down the piano lid, Chi Jingyuan shook his head. Although it was already late, he had just written a song and had mixed emotions in his mind due to what happened tonight, so he was not sleepy at all.
After walking back and forth for a few steps, he sat casually on the table next to him, facing the moonlight, looking through the French window at the distant
Their villa area is located at a high altitude and has a very good viewing angle, so you can vaguely see the prosperous scene of Longshan District in the distance.
The car lights on the streets in the distance formed flowing rivers of light, shuttling between the high-rise buildings. The colorful lights merged into rays of light, adding noise and vitality to Seoul at night. Even standing in Ji Jingyuan, you can see it clearly.
However, I can see their prosperity but cannot hear their laughter.
The lack of sensory experience makes this lively scene even more lonely.
"bell……"
A faint ringtone came from a distance. Although it was weak, it was very clear in the silent environment. He knew it was his cell phone ringing as soon as he heard it. He had just placed it on the bedside table in the bedroom and did not bring it with him.
The atmosphere of enjoying the night view and thinking about his own things was instantly disrupted. Chi Jingyuan curled his lips, stood up and walked quickly towards the bedroom. Although he had probably guessed who the caller was, he still couldn't help complaining in his heart about which lunatic called him so late at night.
When I got the phone, I saw Chou Tzuyu's name.
…………
After entering the password incorrectly twice in a row, Ming Jingnan gently pushed open the door of the dormitory.
I know the password, but my hands are too weak to touch the right place.
After opening the door, Ming Jingnan unconsciously moved more lightly and changed her shoes very quietly, not wanting to disturb anyone... But things often don't go as planned. As soon as she entered the door, a careless voice came over.
"Mina is back!"
While I was still changing my shoes, I heard a greeting from the living room. As expected, Lin Nayeon, a fan of soap operas, was sitting barefoot on the sofa with her legs spread out. Yu Jeongyeon was sitting next to her. On the TV, a romantic drama from an unknown TV station was playing.
The two of them watch TV series together, criticize and complain about the bloody plots while looking forward to them, and then gossip and whisper to each other. This has become a regular program for these two people to relax after returning to the dormitory after work.
When Lim Nayeon and Yu Jeongyeon heard the noise, they looked back and casually greeted Ming Jingnan... Everyone knew that Ming Jingnan went out so late because he must be on a date with Ji Jingyuan.
But they didn't ask much.
Although they are all members of the same group, they each have their own social circle. Except for those with the best relationships, other members are reluctant to interfere in their relationship matters.
"Unnie, what are you looking at?"
Mingjing Nan smiled and replied softly.
The remaining tear marks on her face had been wiped away before she came in, and the paleness on her face was not obvious under the yellowish light.
But her voice couldn't be too loud, because it would be easy for people to hear her hoarse voice due to excessive sadness... Fortunately, her voice was usually soft, so it didn't attract any attention.
Lim Nayeon and Yoo Jeongyeon didn't seem to notice Ming Jingnan's abnormality... but someone still noticed something was wrong.
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Minatozaki Sana, who happened to be in the living room, seemed to have noticed something, stood up, and followed her without being noticed.
...She usually doesn't watch this kind of melodrama, and she can't understand it. She didn't go to the gym today. She doesn't know if she has any premonition at this moment, as if she is waiting for Ming Jingnan.
Mingjing Nan returned to his room and greeted a few roommates. He then sat on his bed in a daze for a while. He exuded a gloomy and lost feeling all over his body, as if he didn't want to be seen by others.
When Minatozaki Sana came in and saw the little sister, Mingjing Nan turned around and went to the balcony.
The glass door closed, and a slightly cold air spread throughout his body. After the surroundings suddenly became quiet, Ming Jingnan finally took off his disguise. The calmness that he had just shown when he smiled and greeted Lin Nayeon and smiled at his roommate disappeared completely in an instant.
At this moment, under the moonlight, she looked haggard and confused.
Her mind was still on the moment when Chi Jingyuan broke up with her. In a trance, she had almost forgotten what happened today, how she had talked to the members just now, and she even didn't know how she got back.
Maybe she actually remembered, but... maybe, she just didn't want to know.
"MIna, you..." When Minatozaki Sana saw the look on Naito Minami's face, she instantly had a vague idea in her mind. She paused and asked tentatively out of habit.
“…”
Mingjing Nan withdrew his somewhat dull gaze from the window, and did not even look at Minatozaki Sana. After a few seconds of silence, he whispered: "Gen-chan... broke up with me."
Her voice was trembling mechanically, and even had a hint of trance in it.
To be honest, until now, Mingjingnan still feels like he is in a dream.
She was very happy when Chi Jingyuan called her to ask her out. Although she noticed that something was wrong between them in recent days, she chose not to care about it, thinking that as long as she endured it, nothing would happen.
only……
Why did Yuan suddenly say that he wanted to break up?
How come Yuan-chan, who was so nice before, suddenly became so cold?
Did she...do something wrong?
How... did it suddenly become like this?
Wouldn't it be true that if she just endured for a few days, these annoying things would be over?
Why……
In a trance, Ming Jingnan didn't even have much anger in his heart. Instead, besides sadness and collapse, he was full of confusion and bewilderment.
"Ah, it really is..."
Although she had some guesses in her mind, after getting the answer from Mingjing Nan, Minatozaki Sana couldn't help but be shocked: "What did he say?"
"he……"
Ming Jingnan opened his mouth when he heard this, but he was like a mute and couldn't say anything. Whenever he thinks back on that conversation, he still feels heartbroken.
On the way back just now, my eyes, which seemed to have lost their function all the way, couldn't help but become active again, and tears fell uncontrollably from my eye sockets like pearls that had broken off the string.
She covered her eyes but couldn't stop her tears. One by one, they fell to the floor and broke into countless tiny droplets, becoming paler in the cold moonlight.
"Nan-chan..."
Seeing Naiji breaking down in tears, Minatozaki Sana's strange feeling after learning about the breakup was instantly suppressed. She was extremely distressed and directly wiped her tears with her hands. At the same time, she continued to ask with concern: "Just... broke up? Just because of this recording? ... Jing... didn't say anything else?"
What a smart girl she is. Yesterday, when Chi Jingyuan invited her to have coffee and talked about Ming Jingnan, she had actually guessed something when she heard the other party's tone.
After all, so many things happened in these days, and she also noticed some of the abnormalities between Chi Jingyuan and Ming Jingnan.
…But she really didn’t expect it to happen so quickly.
Because in her eyes, Chi Jingyuan and Ming Jingnan have always had a very good relationship. She is of course aware that Ming Jingnan has eyes only for her boyfriend, and Chi Jingyuan has also been very good to Ming Jingnan these days, collaborating with her in songwriting to add emotional value, and helping her career with birthday gifts from GUCCI. It can be said that he is extremely enviable in all aspects, and is not at all like the dissolute Aquaman in the rumors.
Although she didn't realize it until Wen Taiyi's recording was exposed, but...
They shouldn't break up so soon. Yesterday, that oppa was obviously hesitant in front of her and even asked for her opinion.
She also said positively that she thinks they should not break up...
How come we broke up the next day?
Besides being shocked and astonished, Minatozaki Sana looked at Naito Minami in front of her, who couldn't control her tears and had her emotions broken down and out of control, and felt extremely distressed and worried.
As a bystander since the two of them fell in love, or since Ming Jingnan fell in love with Chi Jingyuan a long time ago, she knows very well what Chi Jingyuan and this relationship mean to Ming Jingnan.
It can turn a smart, elegant and generous girl from an excellent family into a love-brained person.
I like him more than I like myself...this sentence is not just talk.
The relationship that she cherished most at this time ended like this. It goes without saying that Sana Minatozaki knew how sad this little sister would be.
...There's no need to even think about it. The reaction of Ming Jingnan in front of him, his rapid breathing, his hoarse voice but unable to make a sound, his chest heaving, his body trembling, his physical and emotional collapse as if he was crushed, is enough to make people extremely distressed and worried.
Faced with Minatozaki Sana's concern and inquiries, Mingjing Nan was unable to organize appropriate words. Her sobbing sounds seemed a little broken, like a sharp knife, but it did not stab others, but stabbed deeply into her own heart.
The cold and merciless moonlight came in disorderly from the window. Her shadow was stretched out and reflected lonely on the wall. She shrank inside her own shadow, covering her eyes and curling up in the corner.
But no matter how hard he tried to stand, he couldn't stand steadily.
"If it's for you, I can pretend to be strong even if it hurts."
Inspiration came like a spring. After getting started, Chi Jingyuan moved his hands back and forth on the piano keys, and the music played smoothly without any pause.
At the same time, the lyrics were presented quickly one by one. The look in Ming Jingnan's eyes when they parted at night appeared in front of him. When Chi Jingyuan put himself in Ming Jingnan's perspective, looking back at this long-lasting relationship, and reliving the pressure and humiliation of recent days, he only felt an unspeakable sadness in his heart.
The words of Ikegami conveyed by Minatozaki Sana were like a key that completely opened the valve of emotions. The so-called lyrics seemed to appear in my mind out of thin air without any need for thinking.
...because they seemed to have already been there.
"I just want to be a woman who cares about you wholeheartedly."
"Completely change myself, just for you."
“I hope love is pure.”
"I lost myself just to be your doll"
"This... is fake love."
If it was Ming Jingnan, his heart would definitely be filled with anger and sadness, and he would want to accuse me loudly.
If it were Xiaonan, he would definitely doubt the authenticity of this relationship. Looking back on the past, he would only feel that that love was fake, right?
But, why do I feel this feeling is familiar, as if I have experienced it before...
He began to try to put himself in Ming Jingnan's shoes, simulating the true feelings of his girlfriend whom he had been dating for many days, and accusing and questioning himself from her standpoint and perspective.
But as he sang, the emotions couldn't help but come back to him... Although similar feelings and experiences happened a long time ago, they made him feel more deeply about Mingjing Nan's feelings.
The inspiration that he had been unable to find when he was trying to create a Girls' Generation song before now blossomed like fireworks. Chi Jingyuan played the unfinished song on the piano freely without any hindrance.
It was done in one go. Chi Jingyuan hadn't felt this kind of inspiration for a long time.
It's just that the price is a little bit higher.
I vaguely remember that after breaking up with Bae Joo-hyun, he seemed to suddenly have inspiration and wrote his popular solo song "Loved".
From his own point of view, this song is more suitable than the Japanese album "Electric Kiss" that EXO is preparing, as well as the title song of the future regular fourth album.
only……
Shaking his head, Chi Jingyuan sighed.
But this song is not available yet.
This is a song written from Ming Jingnan's perspective, speculating on her thoughts and emotions, and written in her tone. It can be regarded as an analysis of her feelings.
Even the origin of the entire song and the lyrics that point to the theme are the thoughts of Minami Nai as relayed by Sana Minatozaki.
Others might not be able to hear it... but Mingjing Nan herself could definitely hear it. The two had just broken up, and Nan was still in a stage of breakdown and sadness. If this song was released at this time, it would be tantamount to exposing her scars and using her pain as a footnote.
Breaking up doesn't mean we're all done, and it doesn't mean Chi Jingyuan doesn't care about Xiaonan's feelings anymore.
No matter how you look at it, it's a bit too shameless... Even he couldn't do that.
Unless time passes and Ming Jingnan no longer cares about this relationship or their breakup for some reason, he will just laugh it off after hearing this line from the song.
However, based on Chi Jingyuan's understanding of Ming Jingnan...
It's really a bit difficult.
What a pity...
He shook his head, feeling a little regretful, but he didn't think too much about it. Anyway, EXO's plans and songs for this year have been almost completed. Although this song is of high quality and he likes it very much, it doesn't matter if this one is the best.
He looked at the song he had recorded, thought for a long time, pursed his lips and wrote the song title on it:
Fake Love
Putting down the piano lid, Chi Jingyuan shook his head. Although it was already late, he had just written a song and had mixed emotions in his mind due to what happened tonight, so he was not sleepy at all.
After walking back and forth for a few steps, he sat casually on the table next to him, facing the moonlight, looking through the French window at the distant
Their villa area is located at a high altitude and has a very good viewing angle, so you can vaguely see the prosperous scene of Longshan District in the distance.
The car lights on the streets in the distance formed flowing rivers of light, shuttling between the high-rise buildings. The colorful lights merged into rays of light, adding noise and vitality to Seoul at night. Even standing in Ji Jingyuan, you can see it clearly.
However, I can see their prosperity but cannot hear their laughter.
The lack of sensory experience makes this lively scene even more lonely.
"bell……"
A faint ringtone came from a distance. Although it was weak, it was very clear in the silent environment. He knew it was his cell phone ringing as soon as he heard it. He had just placed it on the bedside table in the bedroom and did not bring it with him.
The atmosphere of enjoying the night view and thinking about his own things was instantly disrupted. Chi Jingyuan curled his lips, stood up and walked quickly towards the bedroom. Although he had probably guessed who the caller was, he still couldn't help complaining in his heart about which lunatic called him so late at night.
When I got the phone, I saw Chou Tzuyu's name.
…………
After entering the password incorrectly twice in a row, Ming Jingnan gently pushed open the door of the dormitory.
I know the password, but my hands are too weak to touch the right place.
After opening the door, Ming Jingnan unconsciously moved more lightly and changed her shoes very quietly, not wanting to disturb anyone... But things often don't go as planned. As soon as she entered the door, a careless voice came over.
"Mina is back!"
While I was still changing my shoes, I heard a greeting from the living room. As expected, Lin Nayeon, a fan of soap operas, was sitting barefoot on the sofa with her legs spread out. Yu Jeongyeon was sitting next to her. On the TV, a romantic drama from an unknown TV station was playing.
The two of them watch TV series together, criticize and complain about the bloody plots while looking forward to them, and then gossip and whisper to each other. This has become a regular program for these two people to relax after returning to the dormitory after work.
When Lim Nayeon and Yu Jeongyeon heard the noise, they looked back and casually greeted Ming Jingnan... Everyone knew that Ming Jingnan went out so late because he must be on a date with Ji Jingyuan.
But they didn't ask much.
Although they are all members of the same group, they each have their own social circle. Except for those with the best relationships, other members are reluctant to interfere in their relationship matters.
"Unnie, what are you looking at?"
Mingjing Nan smiled and replied softly.
The remaining tear marks on her face had been wiped away before she came in, and the paleness on her face was not obvious under the yellowish light.
But her voice couldn't be too loud, because it would be easy for people to hear her hoarse voice due to excessive sadness... Fortunately, her voice was usually soft, so it didn't attract any attention.
Lim Nayeon and Yoo Jeongyeon didn't seem to notice Ming Jingnan's abnormality... but someone still noticed something was wrong.
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Minatozaki Sana, who happened to be in the living room, seemed to have noticed something, stood up, and followed her without being noticed.
...She usually doesn't watch this kind of melodrama, and she can't understand it. She didn't go to the gym today. She doesn't know if she has any premonition at this moment, as if she is waiting for Ming Jingnan.
Mingjing Nan returned to his room and greeted a few roommates. He then sat on his bed in a daze for a while. He exuded a gloomy and lost feeling all over his body, as if he didn't want to be seen by others.
When Minatozaki Sana came in and saw the little sister, Mingjing Nan turned around and went to the balcony.
The glass door closed, and a slightly cold air spread throughout his body. After the surroundings suddenly became quiet, Ming Jingnan finally took off his disguise. The calmness that he had just shown when he smiled and greeted Lin Nayeon and smiled at his roommate disappeared completely in an instant.
At this moment, under the moonlight, she looked haggard and confused.
Her mind was still on the moment when Chi Jingyuan broke up with her. In a trance, she had almost forgotten what happened today, how she had talked to the members just now, and she even didn't know how she got back.
Maybe she actually remembered, but... maybe, she just didn't want to know.
"MIna, you..." When Minatozaki Sana saw the look on Naito Minami's face, she instantly had a vague idea in her mind. She paused and asked tentatively out of habit.
“…”
Mingjing Nan withdrew his somewhat dull gaze from the window, and did not even look at Minatozaki Sana. After a few seconds of silence, he whispered: "Gen-chan... broke up with me."
Her voice was trembling mechanically, and even had a hint of trance in it.
To be honest, until now, Mingjingnan still feels like he is in a dream.
She was very happy when Chi Jingyuan called her to ask her out. Although she noticed that something was wrong between them in recent days, she chose not to care about it, thinking that as long as she endured it, nothing would happen.
only……
Why did Yuan suddenly say that he wanted to break up?
How come Yuan-chan, who was so nice before, suddenly became so cold?
Did she...do something wrong?
How... did it suddenly become like this?
Wouldn't it be true that if she just endured for a few days, these annoying things would be over?
Why……
In a trance, Ming Jingnan didn't even have much anger in his heart. Instead, besides sadness and collapse, he was full of confusion and bewilderment.
"Ah, it really is..."
Although she had some guesses in her mind, after getting the answer from Mingjing Nan, Minatozaki Sana couldn't help but be shocked: "What did he say?"
"he……"
Ming Jingnan opened his mouth when he heard this, but he was like a mute and couldn't say anything. Whenever he thinks back on that conversation, he still feels heartbroken.
On the way back just now, my eyes, which seemed to have lost their function all the way, couldn't help but become active again, and tears fell uncontrollably from my eye sockets like pearls that had broken off the string.
She covered her eyes but couldn't stop her tears. One by one, they fell to the floor and broke into countless tiny droplets, becoming paler in the cold moonlight.
"Nan-chan..."
Seeing Naiji breaking down in tears, Minatozaki Sana's strange feeling after learning about the breakup was instantly suppressed. She was extremely distressed and directly wiped her tears with her hands. At the same time, she continued to ask with concern: "Just... broke up? Just because of this recording? ... Jing... didn't say anything else?"
What a smart girl she is. Yesterday, when Chi Jingyuan invited her to have coffee and talked about Ming Jingnan, she had actually guessed something when she heard the other party's tone.
After all, so many things happened in these days, and she also noticed some of the abnormalities between Chi Jingyuan and Ming Jingnan.
…But she really didn’t expect it to happen so quickly.
Because in her eyes, Chi Jingyuan and Ming Jingnan have always had a very good relationship. She is of course aware that Ming Jingnan has eyes only for her boyfriend, and Chi Jingyuan has also been very good to Ming Jingnan these days, collaborating with her in songwriting to add emotional value, and helping her career with birthday gifts from GUCCI. It can be said that he is extremely enviable in all aspects, and is not at all like the dissolute Aquaman in the rumors.
Although she didn't realize it until Wen Taiyi's recording was exposed, but...
They shouldn't break up so soon. Yesterday, that oppa was obviously hesitant in front of her and even asked for her opinion.
She also said positively that she thinks they should not break up...
How come we broke up the next day?
Besides being shocked and astonished, Minatozaki Sana looked at Naito Minami in front of her, who couldn't control her tears and had her emotions broken down and out of control, and felt extremely distressed and worried.
As a bystander since the two of them fell in love, or since Ming Jingnan fell in love with Chi Jingyuan a long time ago, she knows very well what Chi Jingyuan and this relationship mean to Ming Jingnan.
It can turn a smart, elegant and generous girl from an excellent family into a love-brained person.
I like him more than I like myself...this sentence is not just talk.
The relationship that she cherished most at this time ended like this. It goes without saying that Sana Minatozaki knew how sad this little sister would be.
...There's no need to even think about it. The reaction of Ming Jingnan in front of him, his rapid breathing, his hoarse voice but unable to make a sound, his chest heaving, his body trembling, his physical and emotional collapse as if he was crushed, is enough to make people extremely distressed and worried.
Faced with Minatozaki Sana's concern and inquiries, Mingjing Nan was unable to organize appropriate words. Her sobbing sounds seemed a little broken, like a sharp knife, but it did not stab others, but stabbed deeply into her own heart.
The cold and merciless moonlight came in disorderly from the window. Her shadow was stretched out and reflected lonely on the wall. She shrank inside her own shadow, covering her eyes and curling up in the corner.
But no matter how hard he tried to stand, he couldn't stand steadily.
