Chapter 195 Ten Years Between Eyes Closed and Opened 1
The house in the summer evening is filled with dull dampness, as if it is foretelling that the rainy night is coming, the hot feeling makes the dullness only increase...
Qian Xiaoqi sat in the living room of the courtyard, and after reading the letter she just received in her hand, she frowned and looked up at Qian Gu who was beside her, and then said, "What Ye told is the same as what Yun Yi said. ..."
Qian Gu froze for a moment, then frowned, took the letter paper in Qian Xiaoqi's hand and quickly glanced at it, then frowned even tighter, looked up at Qian Xiaoqi, "Is it an atonement! Originally... if it wasn't for his Appearing, Zhi'er and Jun Xun may not have to bear so much..."
After hearing this, Qian Xiaoqi was silent for a while, then sighed, "Well! That man will never have the mentality of redemption... He did this only because of Zhi'er... Maybe it should be said that he can do it This is only because of Zhi'er..."
After hearing this, Qiangu was silent for a while, "Maybe! But in fact, the fault of all of this is that he fell in love with someone who shouldn't be in love... Zhi'er and Jun Xunna, is it okay? Zhi'er should I know about that man, but Jun Xun he..."
"That's exactly what I'm worried about! But I'm not worried that Jun Xun will let go of Zhi'er or hurt Zhi'er because of this matter, that guy, even if he is cut into pieces now, he won't be so stupid anymore Hurt Zhi'er! I'm worried about Zhi'er and Nuo'er... Nuo'er, that child, seems to have a deep affection for Gu Ying..." Earlier in the yard, they also heard the conversation between Nuo'er and Zhi'er , that girl is devoted to Gu Ying...
Although she can understand that girl's thoughts, after all, Gu Ying worked so hard to bring her up, she likes Gu Ying more than them, more than Jun Xun, it's a matter of course...
But Zhier, she is actually most worried about her. Judging from her conversation with Nuoer and Zhaoer Xuer earlier, she seems to have not yet stepped out of the shadow of self-blame, and, like, there are other things of what...
"Xiaoqi! Qiangu! Are you there?" Just as Qianxiaoqiqiangu and Qiangu were deep in thought, they heard Meng Zhier's low voice asking outside the door at the same time. Yixi, she immediately answered in unison and got up quickly, and when she looked at the door, she saw Meng Zhi'er holding on to the door frame, stepping into the door with her lips slightly curled.
"Zhi'er! Come in and sit down quickly! Where is Jun Xun! He is finally willing to let you out! That bastard! It's okay to bully you yesterday! Today he bullied you all afternoon, and the most hateful thing is that he refused us to go in. See you! It's simply unreasonable! You are more childish than before!"
Qian Xiaoqi quickly got up and went to meet Meng Zhi'er, muttering while supporting her, she glanced left and right outside the door, and when she was looking for Dongli Mubai, she did not forget to scold him several times sentence!
She didn't forget that at dinner yesterday and when she and Qian Gu went to find Meng Zhi'er, Jun Xun blocked the door because Zhi'er was sleeping soundly!
Although it was true that Zhi'er was fast asleep, that guy, with that tone, was so nervous that it seemed like they would snatch Zhi'er away!What a frightening nonsense!
Being supported by Qian Xiaoqi and walking into the hall, listening to Qian Xiaoqi's gnashing of teeth, Meng Zhi'er smiled deeply, "Okay, don't be angry anymore! Mu Bai just can't bear to disturb my rest! Look, I Didn't he just wake up and tell me that you have looked for me!"
Meng Zhier's words were all words to help Dongli Mubai, and Qian Xiaoqi, who gritted his teeth and muttered, couldn't help but roll his eyes. At the same time, he sighed amusingly, and at the same time pressed Meng Zhier lightly on the chair in the hall, then Qian Xiaoqi flicked Meng Zhier's forehead, while Qian Gu stroked the top of Meng Zhier's head in distress.
"You silly girl! You're still so stupid!" Qian Gu touched the top of Meng Zhi'er's head, his eyes fell on her lifeless eyes, and he sighed and said distressedly.
"I think she has been poisoned by the poison named Dongli Mubai! It's been so many years! She's terminally ill now! It's hopeless!" Rolling her eyes, Qian Xiaoqi patted Meng Zhi'er's forehead, annoyed Take Qiangu's words!
Meng Zhi'er's face flushed slightly, feeling the warmth of Qiangu's palm on the top of her head, she reached out and touched the eyebrows with the warmth of Qian Xiaoqi's fingers, when her lips were raised high, a warm current surged in her heart, "Don't You are patronizing and making fun of me! You are not the same! By the way...why don’t you see Qianye and Fanzheng?”
Speaking of this, Meng Zhi'er recalled the doubts in her heart before. She had seen Yun Yi in the past few days when they met, but she hadn't seen Qian Ye and Fan Zheng.
Not to mention Qian Gu and Fan Zheng, in her impression, Qian Ye should be inseparable from Qian Xiaoqi!
Qian Xiaoqi and Qian Gu were stunned by Meng Zhier's question at the same time, and then their brows that had just been flattened were frowned again. Gently rubbing the top of Meng Zhi'er's head a few times, she said, "They are in Xueyang Mountain..."
Meng Zhi'er was startled, her body stiffened instantly, "Really..." Then, they should have seen him right now...
Seeing Meng Zhi'er's obvious changes, Qian Xiaoqi's brows frowned even tighter, looking at Meng Zhi'er, Qian Xiaoqi said distressedly, "Zhi'er! Don't blame yourself, no matter what, it's his own choice, Moreover, if it wasn't because of him back then, you and King Mu might not have experienced all that..."
Meng Zhi'er bit her lip, "I know...I know...but..."
"But it is an indisputable fact that he saved Nuo'er and me..."
Hearing Meng Zhi'er's words, Qian Xiaoqi was startled, and then bit her lips, "Although this is the case...but... Zhi'er, you and King Mu really can't bear too much..." Originally because of this Gu Ying has already made them suffer so much, if it continues now...
"I know! Xiaoqi, I know! After waking up, I was confused, uneasy and frightened... Especially for me, this world seems like a world away...Ten years, for you guys, really It's been a long time, but for me at that time, it was just a matter of closing and opening my eyes..."
She closed her eyes and accepted death. Although she was unwilling and unwilling to give up, she never thought that she could still be alive at that moment... And, just closing her eyes and opening her eyes, it was ten years...
It was clearly her body ten years ago, but it made her feel unreal...as if she didn't belong to this world...
"At that time... when I knew that ten years had passed, and when I heard Nuoer calling my mother, I really didn't know how to respond to her. Everything was really like in a dream...it was unreal ...really...very unreal...as if...I shouldn't exist here...but when I heard him say that Mu Bai is no longer here...just for a moment, I seemed to come from a dream It's like waking up in the middle of the night..." Speaking of this, Meng Zhi'er stretched out her hand to hold Qian Gu's hand touching the top of her head, her body couldn't help trembling, as if she was looking for a sense of peace of mind...
Aware of her uneasiness, Qian Gu's heartbroken prisoner held her hand tightly...
"At that time, the sense of reality seemed to suddenly return to my whole body... I suddenly realized how cruel I was... At that time, I really thought that Mu Bai was gone... However, I came back to life, In the future, I will live in a world without him... Such a sense of fear makes me confused and frightened, I don't know what to do... Then I want to apologize, when I left back then, did Mu Bai also I used to have the same anxiety and fear as me. Did he bear this kind of fear alone for ten years... The more I think about it, the more afraid I become... Even, at that time, I unconsciously said something that hurt Nuoer. if……"
At that time... She was thinking, why, all this is not a dream!Why is it a reality!
At that time, she frantically questioned herself why she was still alive, questioned Gu Ying, why she had to save her... In a world without Mubai, how should she live...
"At that time I said... I said I hated myself for waking up... But, it was Nuo'er's mood that you never expected to hear that... I hurt her..."
She hurt Nuo'er deeply. She never thought about how Nuo'er's little heart has been so strong in those years...and how she has been praying for her all the time...how she expected Hope she can open her eyes to see her...
Similarly, she also hurt Mu Bai and Zhao'er Xu'er!
Ten years, she just closed her eyes and opened them, but for Nuo'er and Mu Bai, for Zhao'er and Xu'er, how long is ten years...
As a wife, as a mother, she was never really good enough, really, really failed...
"Zhi'er!" Qian Gu and Qian Xiaoqi listened quietly to Meng Zhi'er's words, and then slowly blushed. They knew her uneasiness, everything about her...
"I'm sorry to say so many irrelevant things..." Wiping the tears that fell on her cheeks at an unknown time, Meng Zhi'er curled her lips and held back the tears from falling, "I just want to tell you... I won't No matter how confused...you won't go wrong anymore...really...so don't worry about me, okay!"
Qian Xiaoqiqiangu nodded and curled her lips together, "Idiot! We know!"
Meng Zhi'er chuckled, "Thank you! Thank you all so much! Thank you for taking good care of Zhao'er and Xu'er!"
Qian Xiaoqiqiangu was stunned, then remembered Zhao'er and Xu'er, and both raised their lips, "That's because they were sensible since they were young! How can we have any credit!"
Speaking of this, the two seemed to be thinking of something, their faces turned pale, and after hesitating for a while, Qian Xiaoqi frowned, "Zhi'er...about Nuo'er...I'm really sorry... At that time, we tried our best to save you, but..." At this point, Qian Xiaoqi's voice became choked up, "Although we tried our best to save the three children, but because you were no longer breathing, The toxin also spread with the disappearance of your true qi to protect the children... When we took out Zhao'er, Xu'er and the others, we found that Nuo'er had been corroded by the toxin, and at that time, he was no longer breathing..."
Seeing that Qian Xiaoqi's words were already choked and unsteady, Qian Gu looked at Meng Zhi'er who was listening with a pale face, and then answered Qian Xiaoqi's words, "At that time, on Changqing Cliff, after knowing you left, Mu Wang... was very emotional. About Nuoer, Qianye insisted on not telling him... Then he took you away without warning. Zhao'er and the others stayed in the cave to be taken care of by his subordinates. After we saw the lonely shadow on the cliff and took you away, we received the news that they were attacked by the remaining zombies. We rushed back to rescue Zhao'er and Xu'er, and Nuo'er Son, it's nowhere to be seen..."
Speaking of this, Qian Gu gritted his teeth, and blamed himself deeply in his eyes, "I think you should know that after you left, Mu Wang has never stepped out of the shadow in his heart, and has completely closed himself for several years... ... about Nuoer, we really can't talk to him anymore..."
At the end of Qian Gu's words, Meng Zhi'er was about to break down in tears, "I know... I know..."
That's why that idiot Mu Bai blamed himself so much!For Nuoer, he felt deeply guilty and remorseful!
Fool!Obviously, it wasn't his fault...
The three people in the room talked for a long time, accompanied by occasional faint and suppressed sobbing, which came out of the yard from time to time. As night fell, thunderstorms sounded, making a figure in the hidden place outside the yard unable to breathe for a long time...
In the dormitory, Meng Zhi'er was sitting at the table wiping her hair that was still dripping, and while she continued wiping, she was recalling the previous conversation with Qian Xiaoqiqiangu...
When her hair was slightly dry, Meng Zhi'er slowly stopped her hands, took out a white porcelain bottle from her sleeve, held it in her hand as if she was lost in thought, until the sound of the door opening, and when she was suddenly hugged by a pair of arms, Fang recover...
(End of this chapter)
The house in the summer evening is filled with dull dampness, as if it is foretelling that the rainy night is coming, the hot feeling makes the dullness only increase...
Qian Xiaoqi sat in the living room of the courtyard, and after reading the letter she just received in her hand, she frowned and looked up at Qian Gu who was beside her, and then said, "What Ye told is the same as what Yun Yi said. ..."
Qian Gu froze for a moment, then frowned, took the letter paper in Qian Xiaoqi's hand and quickly glanced at it, then frowned even tighter, looked up at Qian Xiaoqi, "Is it an atonement! Originally... if it wasn't for his Appearing, Zhi'er and Jun Xun may not have to bear so much..."
After hearing this, Qian Xiaoqi was silent for a while, then sighed, "Well! That man will never have the mentality of redemption... He did this only because of Zhi'er... Maybe it should be said that he can do it This is only because of Zhi'er..."
After hearing this, Qiangu was silent for a while, "Maybe! But in fact, the fault of all of this is that he fell in love with someone who shouldn't be in love... Zhi'er and Jun Xunna, is it okay? Zhi'er should I know about that man, but Jun Xun he..."
"That's exactly what I'm worried about! But I'm not worried that Jun Xun will let go of Zhi'er or hurt Zhi'er because of this matter, that guy, even if he is cut into pieces now, he won't be so stupid anymore Hurt Zhi'er! I'm worried about Zhi'er and Nuo'er... Nuo'er, that child, seems to have a deep affection for Gu Ying..." Earlier in the yard, they also heard the conversation between Nuo'er and Zhi'er , that girl is devoted to Gu Ying...
Although she can understand that girl's thoughts, after all, Gu Ying worked so hard to bring her up, she likes Gu Ying more than them, more than Jun Xun, it's a matter of course...
But Zhier, she is actually most worried about her. Judging from her conversation with Nuoer and Zhaoer Xuer earlier, she seems to have not yet stepped out of the shadow of self-blame, and, like, there are other things of what...
"Xiaoqi! Qiangu! Are you there?" Just as Qianxiaoqiqiangu and Qiangu were deep in thought, they heard Meng Zhier's low voice asking outside the door at the same time. Yixi, she immediately answered in unison and got up quickly, and when she looked at the door, she saw Meng Zhi'er holding on to the door frame, stepping into the door with her lips slightly curled.
"Zhi'er! Come in and sit down quickly! Where is Jun Xun! He is finally willing to let you out! That bastard! It's okay to bully you yesterday! Today he bullied you all afternoon, and the most hateful thing is that he refused us to go in. See you! It's simply unreasonable! You are more childish than before!"
Qian Xiaoqi quickly got up and went to meet Meng Zhi'er, muttering while supporting her, she glanced left and right outside the door, and when she was looking for Dongli Mubai, she did not forget to scold him several times sentence!
She didn't forget that at dinner yesterday and when she and Qian Gu went to find Meng Zhi'er, Jun Xun blocked the door because Zhi'er was sleeping soundly!
Although it was true that Zhi'er was fast asleep, that guy, with that tone, was so nervous that it seemed like they would snatch Zhi'er away!What a frightening nonsense!
Being supported by Qian Xiaoqi and walking into the hall, listening to Qian Xiaoqi's gnashing of teeth, Meng Zhi'er smiled deeply, "Okay, don't be angry anymore! Mu Bai just can't bear to disturb my rest! Look, I Didn't he just wake up and tell me that you have looked for me!"
Meng Zhier's words were all words to help Dongli Mubai, and Qian Xiaoqi, who gritted his teeth and muttered, couldn't help but roll his eyes. At the same time, he sighed amusingly, and at the same time pressed Meng Zhier lightly on the chair in the hall, then Qian Xiaoqi flicked Meng Zhier's forehead, while Qian Gu stroked the top of Meng Zhier's head in distress.
"You silly girl! You're still so stupid!" Qian Gu touched the top of Meng Zhi'er's head, his eyes fell on her lifeless eyes, and he sighed and said distressedly.
"I think she has been poisoned by the poison named Dongli Mubai! It's been so many years! She's terminally ill now! It's hopeless!" Rolling her eyes, Qian Xiaoqi patted Meng Zhi'er's forehead, annoyed Take Qiangu's words!
Meng Zhi'er's face flushed slightly, feeling the warmth of Qiangu's palm on the top of her head, she reached out and touched the eyebrows with the warmth of Qian Xiaoqi's fingers, when her lips were raised high, a warm current surged in her heart, "Don't You are patronizing and making fun of me! You are not the same! By the way...why don’t you see Qianye and Fanzheng?”
Speaking of this, Meng Zhi'er recalled the doubts in her heart before. She had seen Yun Yi in the past few days when they met, but she hadn't seen Qian Ye and Fan Zheng.
Not to mention Qian Gu and Fan Zheng, in her impression, Qian Ye should be inseparable from Qian Xiaoqi!
Qian Xiaoqi and Qian Gu were stunned by Meng Zhier's question at the same time, and then their brows that had just been flattened were frowned again. Gently rubbing the top of Meng Zhi'er's head a few times, she said, "They are in Xueyang Mountain..."
Meng Zhi'er was startled, her body stiffened instantly, "Really..." Then, they should have seen him right now...
Seeing Meng Zhi'er's obvious changes, Qian Xiaoqi's brows frowned even tighter, looking at Meng Zhi'er, Qian Xiaoqi said distressedly, "Zhi'er! Don't blame yourself, no matter what, it's his own choice, Moreover, if it wasn't because of him back then, you and King Mu might not have experienced all that..."
Meng Zhi'er bit her lip, "I know...I know...but..."
"But it is an indisputable fact that he saved Nuo'er and me..."
Hearing Meng Zhi'er's words, Qian Xiaoqi was startled, and then bit her lips, "Although this is the case...but... Zhi'er, you and King Mu really can't bear too much..." Originally because of this Gu Ying has already made them suffer so much, if it continues now...
"I know! Xiaoqi, I know! After waking up, I was confused, uneasy and frightened... Especially for me, this world seems like a world away...Ten years, for you guys, really It's been a long time, but for me at that time, it was just a matter of closing and opening my eyes..."
She closed her eyes and accepted death. Although she was unwilling and unwilling to give up, she never thought that she could still be alive at that moment... And, just closing her eyes and opening her eyes, it was ten years...
It was clearly her body ten years ago, but it made her feel unreal...as if she didn't belong to this world...
"At that time... when I knew that ten years had passed, and when I heard Nuoer calling my mother, I really didn't know how to respond to her. Everything was really like in a dream...it was unreal ...really...very unreal...as if...I shouldn't exist here...but when I heard him say that Mu Bai is no longer here...just for a moment, I seemed to come from a dream It's like waking up in the middle of the night..." Speaking of this, Meng Zhi'er stretched out her hand to hold Qian Gu's hand touching the top of her head, her body couldn't help trembling, as if she was looking for a sense of peace of mind...
Aware of her uneasiness, Qian Gu's heartbroken prisoner held her hand tightly...
"At that time, the sense of reality seemed to suddenly return to my whole body... I suddenly realized how cruel I was... At that time, I really thought that Mu Bai was gone... However, I came back to life, In the future, I will live in a world without him... Such a sense of fear makes me confused and frightened, I don't know what to do... Then I want to apologize, when I left back then, did Mu Bai also I used to have the same anxiety and fear as me. Did he bear this kind of fear alone for ten years... The more I think about it, the more afraid I become... Even, at that time, I unconsciously said something that hurt Nuoer. if……"
At that time... She was thinking, why, all this is not a dream!Why is it a reality!
At that time, she frantically questioned herself why she was still alive, questioned Gu Ying, why she had to save her... In a world without Mubai, how should she live...
"At that time I said... I said I hated myself for waking up... But, it was Nuo'er's mood that you never expected to hear that... I hurt her..."
She hurt Nuo'er deeply. She never thought about how Nuo'er's little heart has been so strong in those years...and how she has been praying for her all the time...how she expected Hope she can open her eyes to see her...
Similarly, she also hurt Mu Bai and Zhao'er Xu'er!
Ten years, she just closed her eyes and opened them, but for Nuo'er and Mu Bai, for Zhao'er and Xu'er, how long is ten years...
As a wife, as a mother, she was never really good enough, really, really failed...
"Zhi'er!" Qian Gu and Qian Xiaoqi listened quietly to Meng Zhi'er's words, and then slowly blushed. They knew her uneasiness, everything about her...
"I'm sorry to say so many irrelevant things..." Wiping the tears that fell on her cheeks at an unknown time, Meng Zhi'er curled her lips and held back the tears from falling, "I just want to tell you... I won't No matter how confused...you won't go wrong anymore...really...so don't worry about me, okay!"
Qian Xiaoqiqiangu nodded and curled her lips together, "Idiot! We know!"
Meng Zhi'er chuckled, "Thank you! Thank you all so much! Thank you for taking good care of Zhao'er and Xu'er!"
Qian Xiaoqiqiangu was stunned, then remembered Zhao'er and Xu'er, and both raised their lips, "That's because they were sensible since they were young! How can we have any credit!"
Speaking of this, the two seemed to be thinking of something, their faces turned pale, and after hesitating for a while, Qian Xiaoqi frowned, "Zhi'er...about Nuo'er...I'm really sorry... At that time, we tried our best to save you, but..." At this point, Qian Xiaoqi's voice became choked up, "Although we tried our best to save the three children, but because you were no longer breathing, The toxin also spread with the disappearance of your true qi to protect the children... When we took out Zhao'er, Xu'er and the others, we found that Nuo'er had been corroded by the toxin, and at that time, he was no longer breathing..."
Seeing that Qian Xiaoqi's words were already choked and unsteady, Qian Gu looked at Meng Zhi'er who was listening with a pale face, and then answered Qian Xiaoqi's words, "At that time, on Changqing Cliff, after knowing you left, Mu Wang... was very emotional. About Nuoer, Qianye insisted on not telling him... Then he took you away without warning. Zhao'er and the others stayed in the cave to be taken care of by his subordinates. After we saw the lonely shadow on the cliff and took you away, we received the news that they were attacked by the remaining zombies. We rushed back to rescue Zhao'er and Xu'er, and Nuo'er Son, it's nowhere to be seen..."
Speaking of this, Qian Gu gritted his teeth, and blamed himself deeply in his eyes, "I think you should know that after you left, Mu Wang has never stepped out of the shadow in his heart, and has completely closed himself for several years... ... about Nuoer, we really can't talk to him anymore..."
At the end of Qian Gu's words, Meng Zhi'er was about to break down in tears, "I know... I know..."
That's why that idiot Mu Bai blamed himself so much!For Nuoer, he felt deeply guilty and remorseful!
Fool!Obviously, it wasn't his fault...
The three people in the room talked for a long time, accompanied by occasional faint and suppressed sobbing, which came out of the yard from time to time. As night fell, thunderstorms sounded, making a figure in the hidden place outside the yard unable to breathe for a long time...
In the dormitory, Meng Zhi'er was sitting at the table wiping her hair that was still dripping, and while she continued wiping, she was recalling the previous conversation with Qian Xiaoqiqiangu...
When her hair was slightly dry, Meng Zhi'er slowly stopped her hands, took out a white porcelain bottle from her sleeve, held it in her hand as if she was lost in thought, until the sound of the door opening, and when she was suddenly hugged by a pair of arms, Fang recover...
(End of this chapter)
